Wrote this on on Friday, 17 September 2010 at 4:50am after a particularly sick n pathetic break-up 😛
Perceive what you may 😛
Lol this is what happens when you pour out your heart into paper 😛
My usual boring life came to a standstill
When you entered; you did change it.
Though it may sound clichéd, it is the truth.
And, you know it.
Here i was minding my own business
Until you came along and changed the whole thing!
Which i never asked for!
Cuz now, its me who’s suffering! Not you!
My life was perfect, complete with you.
Though the time we were together
Was short beyond imagination,
Believe me, it seemed like forever!
Your words coaxed me.
You made me go numb.
You made me go weak in the knees.
You made me everything i was not!
You softened my rock-hard of a heart.
And what did i ever do in return?
Love you was all i did.
The love which evaporated totally.
The love which has vanished into thin air.
The love which has turned into hatred.
Where’d it all go, i ask?
And you shrug your shoulders casually.
‘I dont know’ you say, with indifference.
I wonder how.
If you’re blaming me for it,
I assure you my faults weren’t intentional.
Am left searching for the love
Inside out. In vain.
Where has it all gone? Where?
Is the hatred so deep that,
It buried the love totally?
Why did this have to happen?
Thats all i seem to be asking
Everyday to myself.
And what could my poor heart do?
But sigh loudly and say ‘I don’t know sweetheart’.
Doesn’t stop me from asking again.
You once told me you’re happy
Now that am in your life.
Then you said you’re losing your happiness;
Because of me.
I wanted to kill myself for it.
You told me you’ll always
Be there for me.
Where? You aren’t here now!
You told me you’ll do anything for my smile.
Come back then! Come back!
Don’t you realize that my smile’s a fake?
As you promised, mustn’t you make me smile?
You promised you’d never leave me!
Where’d it all go now?
Were they just words?
I now they that they are, just words.
You stated if I ever were to leave you,
It’ll leave a deep scar inside of you.
But then YOU left me.
Guess what it did to me?
Thats right. Am empty.
I feel empty.
My days’r incomplete without your
‘I love You’s.
Without your texts.
Without hearing your voice.
Without having You in my life.
The memories are haunting me.
It keeps coming back.
Your name seems to find its way
Into my blessed ears always.
I wonder for what joy.
All i manage to say is “thank you very much”
To the source.
My dreams are apparently unaware of your absence
That it happily plays you
Over and over again.
Are you so heartless?
I bequeathed my heart to you.
You snatched away yours, cruelly from me.
You were wrong; if you thought i couldn’t
Take good care of it.
Remember, it was love that i did.
My life’s back to its usual self
With just you missing from it.
But as i promised you,
Am dealing with it.
Thanks for the memories, though.
Here’s the smile you asked me for 😀
Dedicated to my Heart 😀 😀 😀 😀